Whom to Blame

Many a times
Life is hard,
difficulties gross
not easy to sustain.

No one understands
no one cares,
loneliness overpowers
with miseries infinite.

All efforts made
to do good to others
and actions of love
bring hatred in return.

The burden of life
seems so heavy,
feet get tired
and path too lengthy.

The mind gets puzzled
questions overflow
all this load,
how long to endure?

Why such things
happen to me?
Why this suffering
for me alone?

Who is responsible
for this game?
Whom should I ask?
Whom should I blame?

When I go deep
I understand and feel,
it is me and only me
to be questioned and blamed.

It was me,
who gave the blueprint
to God,
to carve my path.

It was me
who chose my circumstances,
my relations, friends
and this life.

Why do I cry?
Why does my heart become heavy?
Why do tears
roll down my cheeks?

I am solely responsible
for choosing this route.
This unending path
of attachments and desires.

The path of miseries,
love and hate,
happiness and sorrow,
lust and greed.

I questioned myself
I want fortune & fame
Is this our actual aim?
I want fun & want to play
Is that the reason we get another day?

I read the religion
I read the spiritualism 
to understand the meaning of the happenings
I tried my best
To understand what life is?
And what it wants?

Aah!! I am confused
I am stressed
Life seems to be generous
for so many
but at the same time
it acts so harshly with many

Our soul wants us to be free
Just like a bee
But I did a fault
By always following
The path of truth

Let me once again hope
That one day I will
Make out the difference between
The eternal and the ephemeral.

Note: Inspired from a poem written in Heritage of Shirdi Sai.......beech beech main maine bhi apna bahut saara add on karke life ke liye apni khundak nikaal lee :-)